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I am officially a redhead=)*pretty*

so i am back and i am still alive)) 4th of jyly was ok.. stayed up all night listening to ipod, noone wanted to talk to me(( tried keeping awake a few people, but they just got mad at me(( took bunch of photos of me hanging around and eating (yah, i broke the rules again, but for my punishment i'll go running today, plus now that the holiday's over i can get back on track with wahtev) lol, we were all kinda bored so i suggested that we'll put make up on guys and see who will look better (i, well, knowing me, you'll think.. so i brought a whole bag of make up with me, not that i needed it) so of all the people there only two agreed- D.(!!!!!??? quet a surprise) and some othere guy i didn't know well.. lol, that was VERY entertaining=))) we also did their nails (lack of the nail polish remover), so it was TOTALLY GAY.. but still funny, considering they walked around like that for the whole day!! so picture them wearing an eyeliner and bright red lipstick.. man.. not like we hanged out together or anything, just for the "makeover".. i have to go transform myself from blondie to a redhead)))))) sorry you guys never saw me as blonde(( but i really got bored of it easily, so now am changing again. don't worry you'll see me blonde agian i promise))))

went out yesterday and bought a black nail polish)) now i am officially emo. jk.. i am also considering dying most of my clothes black, i think that this color totally represents my life right now *sign* though my hair will be red.. i don't know what i want!!))i am leaving for an all night party, be back thursday if still alive..............

just another crazy weekend! party was fun.. cathing up with one "good" boy and getting a little drunk))sunday was ok, i went cruising again, and slept in a gazebo (sp?), ate a whole pizza (shiiiiiit)tomorrow is independence day!! i am SO EXCITED it's gonna b great)))) we are going to this island and spending the night there in a tent under the stars and there is going to b so much fireworks... so i don't know if we will even get to sleep, but i guess eventually i love that place!!

i have to work today( well, i'll get a free facial, so it's not THAT bad=) anyways, that interview i went to totally stressed me out, but in the end I got the job!! told you, oh, yah, i told you.. jk.
totally off topic- i counted my shoes.. 52 pairs omg...well, 8 of them r mom's that i consider mine, and 4 are for winter(boots), like 6-7 snickers that still fit me, so that makes more thatn 30 sandals that i can wear NOW.. I'll probably donate some though, because there is no place to put them anymore. who wants my shoes??

we r renovating the house.. it's such a mess!!! i can't find one thing in here.. where the hell is my blowdryer?? anyways, I have an appointment today and them a really important job interview.. I am freaking out.. WISH ME LUCK... i'll tell you how that went, but i am so determined to get it!!=)
*yah, one thing about me you need to know- never stand on my way..*

gma was here. when i woke up noone was home. when i THOUGHT that i will finally have some peace, Joel showed up. with sasha. to spend the night. and now it's a mad house in here, they are baicly just laughing their asses at me. it's hell(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Говорят, что однажды собрались в одном уголке земли вместе все человеческие чувства и качества. Когда СКУКА зевнула уже в третий раз, СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ предложило: А давайте играть в прятки!? ИНТРИГА приподняла бровь: Прятки? Что это за игра?, и СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ объяснило, что один из них, например, оно, водит, закрывает глаза и считает до миллиона, в то время как остальные прячутся. Тот, кто будет найден последним, станет водить в следующий раз и так далее. ЭНТУЗИАЗМ затанцевал с ЭЙФОРИЕЙ, РАДОСТЬ так прыгала, что убедила СОМНЕНИЕ, вот только АПАТИЯ, которую никогда ничего не интересовало, отказалась участвовать в игре.



ПРАВДА предпочла не прятаться, потому что в конце концов ее всегда находят, ГОРДОСТЬ сказала, что это совершенно дурацкая игра (ее ничего кроме себя самой не волновало), ТРУСОСТИ очень не хотелось рисковать.



Раз, два, три, - начало счет СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ. Первой спряталась ЛЕНЬ, она укрылась за ближайшем камнем на дороге, ВЕРА поднялась на небеса, а ЗАВИСТЬ спряталась в тени ТРИУМФА, который собственными силами умудрился взобраться на верхушку самого высокого дерева. БЛАГОРОДСТВО очень долго не могло спрятаться, так как каждое место, которое оно находило казалось идеальным для его друзей:



Кристально чистое озеро для КРАСОТЫ;
Расщелина дерева - так это для СТРАХА;
Крыло бабочки - для СЛАДОСТРАСТИЯ;
Дуновение ветерка - ведь это для СВОБОДЫ!
Итак, оно, БЛАГОРОДСТВО, замаскировалось в лучике солнца.



ЭГОИЗМ, напротив, нашел только для себя теплое и уютное местечко.
ЛОЖЬ спряталась на глубине океана (на самом деле она укрылась в радуге), а СТРАСТЬ и ЖЕЛАНИЕ затаились в жерле вулкана.
ЭГОИЗМ и искать было не нужно, потому что местом, где он прятался оказался улей пчел, которые решили выгнать непрошеного гостя.
ЗАБЫВЧИВОСТЬ, даже не помню, где она спряталась, но это не важно.
Когда СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ досчитало до 999999, ЛЮБОВЬ все еще искала, где бы ей спрятаться, но все уже было занято. Но вдруг она увидела дивный розовый куст и решила укрыться среди его цветов.
- Миллион, сосчитало СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ и принялось искать.



Первой оно, конечно же, нашло ЛЕНЬ.
Потом услышало как ВЕРА спорит с Богом, а о СТРАСТИ и ЖЕЛАНИИ оно узнало по тому как дрожит вулкан, затем СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ увидело ЗАВИСТЬ и догадалось, где прячется ТРИУМФ.
В поисках СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ подошло напиться к ручью и увидело КРАСОТУ. СОМНЕНИЕ сидело у забора, решая, с какой же стороны ему спрятаться.
Итак все были найдены:
ТАЛАНТ - в свежей и сочной траве,
ПЕЧАЛЬ - в Темной пещере,
ЛОЖЬ - в радуге (если честно, то она пряталась на дне океана).



Вот только ЛЮБОВЬ найти не могли.



СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ искало за каждым деревом, в каждом ручейке, на вершине каждой горы и, наконец, он решило посмотреть в розовых кустах, и когда раздвигало ветки, услышало крик.
Острые шипы роз поранили ЛЮБВИ глаза.



СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ не знало что и делать, принялось извиняться, плакало, молило, просило прощения и в искупление своей вины пообещало ЛЮБВИ стать ее поводырем.



И вот с тех пор, когда впервые на земле играли в прятки...



ЛЮБОВЬ слепа и СУМАСШЕСТВИЕ водит её за руку...

Yah, I was going through some blogs and i found this.. and i was just like- that's so true. so i thought you'll want to read this))

I am absessed. Another dress. finished today. I wish you could see it) gorgeous)) and RED

sweet)) exams r ova..im prett sure i passesd all of them))tom. is the last day of school, but im sooo skipping!sh, don't tell my parents. lol. anyways yesterday was sashas graduation and after we went to this "island" and i was swimming and basicly overeating the whole night. we all went tubing and cruised on a boat. my butt kinda hurts)) mm, from tubing i mean. i wanted to go skinnydipping(!!) but, i thought twice and ah, yah, i am not insane.. ther were guys there. on the other hand, if one of them went with me)) MOM GOT DRUNK. LOL. And sasha apparently broke up with his gf. sad but true (no, it wasn't because of me, they made up after that incident, it just he started splashing her and they had a fight..) yah. so SCOOL'S OVA, here comes SUMMER. it's gonna b so much fun (well i hope) *sign*
p.s. you know what i really can't wait untill? 4th of july..

I wonder how is it that I get two hardest exams in one day? in spanish I totally messed up all verb tenses and english, well, it's my second language!! I have no idea what my grade is( finals suck(( anyways, I have to go to sasha's graduation party.. I'll get free ice cream.. dietdietdiet. it's too hot outside- my exuse=)
oh, p.s. I was walking home in whicked high heels and I stepped on a glass, what if it's like HIV infected? I am freeking out here! HELPHELPHELP

3 days. I can do this.

I made a dress, no kidding. It's so adorable, I am kinda proud of it actually. I spent 6 freaking hours making it!! but everyone liked it. I'll post a picture sometime. Yesterday was so lame. mom came at 8 pm, and said that she wanted to go out aka mother/daughter night. yo.. I was just like um, sure? I don't think it's ever been just the two of us. I think she's trying hard to make up a lot of things to me, but so far it's not working. So we went to a cafe, then walked in the park, and to another restaurant for ice cream. (shitshitshit I'm on diet!!) let me just tell you that I would have rather stayed home, as it was pretty awkward and I don't know any other subject to talk to my mom about, other then gyus.. and I am so not doing that. I really don't remember ever talking to her and I 'd like to keep it that way. got it mom? I'm so moving out(( yah, it all ended with just another fight..

can I just say that I wore the most adorable skirt today.. the whole day all I heard was "I like your skirt" and "where did you get that?" so cute)) it's actually Banana Republic, but who knows what else is in my closet..

today was the award ceremony, I actually didn't think i'd get anyhting, cause the whole year I was slucking off + I moved schools.. but, to my great surprize, they anounced me, very loudly, and I got a Western Civ. (aka History) award!! wow.. can i ask FOR WHAT? and I also got an award for my art))) I am very very happy, I mean they picked me and another 5 student from the entire school!! it said "artistic excelence"))) but I so deserved it..

kstati fotka(vverhy) et ya.. ona y menya davno valyalas', teper' ya ee postavila v jyrnal. Voobshe to ya blondinka.. tol'ko tam bilo stol'ko laka v volosah chto i ne skajesh', a teper' ya eshe i pokrasilas')) (no ne na fote)..

Yah, the picture up there it's me- for people who wonder what i look like.. it was taken professionaly right before the dance in my white dress (it wasn't really as puffy as it looks- someone was actually holding it from the front and back) anyways I am looking for a new camera to take pics of my designs and later post them on ebay or something.. I am also in progress of making a website.. I know, for like about a year! but it's not as easy as it looks! I need a camera, so badly, but it's like $200 for the cheapest digital, which is something I don't have. I am broke- all that shopping, but I laso don't feel like asking mom for cash.

I feel like today was a really good day) I slept in history, all trough advosory and health.. in spanish,I don't remember what I did, in english I pretended to read a book, while really passing sexy notes to guy next to me, in geometry I flirted, well, I mean I do it 24/7, but in geometry especially, then I was on internet)They blocked myspace and youtube! my two so favorite websites! boring, just like always.. haven't learned a single thing though) anyways I am having one of those days that no matter what happens I feel happy.. I am also into eating today. usually I skip breakfast and lunch, come home and pig out and then skip dinner. today, I ate a whole cupcake, drunk a smoothie (milkshake/ coctail-whatever you call it) and now I am eating chips with coke that are so bad for me))) everyone says I am so skinny,(maybe because I live in a place where 60% of people are simply obese, and 20%more chubby) but I eat a lot. I got into a very loud discussion today with a guy who thought I was really skinny and kept telling me that for about an hour and a girl who was jealous of my body. He also said I have nice boobs!(omg, since when someone likes my..?) which is of course totally random, cause I usually don't hear that from guys..or at least untill today, I thought.. anyways I guess I have fast metabolism. 6 days of school left, and then summer! It's going to be a blast! Long days on the beach.. work.. just hanging out)) at least no one can tell me what to do anymore, I am too grown up and independent, I notice it more every day. It's like I finally realized thet life is good.. and it will get even better)

I had to go to dentist!! its horrible! I am mortified of them. thank goodness my teeth are fine, didn't need fillings or anything) and now, as a sort of reward I am going shopping, for pattens and sewing books/ magazines. I think the first store I'll go to is Joan Fabrics and then maybe Arts and Crafts and the Walmart- they have a great selection there, yah , I know unbelievable. Also, I found bunch of books on sewing at tanya's yesterday and since I have 6 bags of fabric, I better use it now. Sweet Sweet Sweet)

I spent the whole weekend on the beach)) I have a nice tan now.. and a bit of sunburn, but I'll be fine. I am home right now, reading "Cosmopolitan".. I LOVE that magazine!